Hello Rick,
Your back into Cranky mode.
You complain almost every time we are together you complain about Cody.
"Cody does not do anything" you say (he does more around here then you and your mom do)
"All Cody does ALL day is play on that computer"...

Personally I think Cody is doing well nothing REALLY different then any other teen his age.
I think your mad because you have to work to pay off many of these bills you have made for us.  Because you and I both know full well when your NOT working your on that computer ALL DAMN day.  You and I have talked about it because I have been upset that you NEVER spend time with me because your on that computer every waking moment.
You also complain about the house being dirty but guess what buddy YOU DON'T clean either.  The only one cleaning is MY boys.  And CJ does dishes.  Your mom does not clean anything.  You clean NOTHING NOT even your room.  Dustin does not clean.  I clean some but lately I have not.

Today you upset me After working TWO jobs.  Mcdonalds and a house clean up for Mark.  You wanted me to make you food.
 I did and you said "I am not in the mood for spicey"
HOW FREAKING RUDE... I go to the trouble to make you two dinners actually and then you don't want it cuz your not in the mood for spicey...
The fact that you treated me like a maid pisses me off too.  Told Tyler "go back on your game I will have Trudy make me something"  WOW ... nice guy... When you going to cook for me?  I am sure you don't because of some complaint you have against my kids.  But that does not stop me from cooking for you.

I am also upset because you have blown through all the truck payment money again... we now owe 570 on the truck.  I had to buy you car stuff.. and you bought game stuff for me and you promising you would pay for it.  Then guess what ... YOU didn't I am guessing you don't really want that truck because you care nothing about making the damn payments.

Rick,
When I asked you to show me her texts you got all secretive and wouldn't show me until after you deleted it.
You first tried to play off I was crazy that I didn't see what I seen ... But I am NOT crazy like that...
Now you play off that you don't know how it got deleted.
Your argument why would you send her money when she is doing better then we are?  Answer because YOU like taking care of her.  She likes you taking care of her.

I can't trust you and I am sure I will never be able to again.
SAD SAD SAD.

Hello Michael,
I wish I had never fallen for you.  The only reason that I am happy I met you is that is how I met Rick as for the 10 years we spent together it was all a lie.  I believe you used me like you are using Colleen now?
You lied to me almost the entire time we were together.  Then leaving like you did so sudden left a gaping whole not only for me but all the children that came into our lives.  The sad is you don't give a damn that you hurt all these people.
I am trying to learn to forgive you as the Bible says I should but I don't know how to do that with the enormous pain that I am in.  Every time your name is brought up it hurts.  Every time I have a passing thought of you it hurts.  I have no real happy moments.  Sure there are things I miss about being with you that I don't have now... however that is a reflection of my needs not how you were as a person.
Rick thinks that if you came back into my life I would go back to you but how could I.  With the amount of lies you told how could I ever trust a word you said?  Being that you left me for another woman how could I ever trust you not to cheat on me? I couldn't.... I don't think of you and smile I am not sure that could ever happen... I look at our lives together and think what a waste...
Had I never been with you I still have Sunny and Lily because "Angel" would have let Rick sign the papers instead of you and he would have been a much better father to them then you ever were.  In his mind you ruined my boys.  How could you be a part of their lives for over 10 years and just walk away like they were nothing?  You don't even care how badly you hurt them boys.  They still have issues because of how you did that.
Being the enormity of the way you lied about your crime I have to think that you are a danger to everyone around you.  I have to wonder if you did something with Peggy, if your doing something to colleen's daughter now, I hope if you are doing that sick stuff that someone stops you for good.
I am going to end this now...
Good bye Mike.  
It is my hopes that I never see you again in this life time.

Hello Rick,
We made love this morning, It was not that good sorry but it was not. Besides the fact that I was already upset that I bought you a pack of smokes something you promised I would NEVER have to do again.   You smelled and tasted of Smoke YUCK... It was not all bad but it was not that good either.

I wish you didn't want to smoke.  You keep saying you don't but yet you keep doing it.  I feel like you love smoking more then you love being with me and making love to me.  It is sad and it breaks my heart.


Later...

after a Trying day at work.... I came home and at first all was cool UNTIL we had to go somewhere...THEN OMG!! you started in AGAIN... Bitching about Cody... Cody don't do this CODY is nasty and he does that.   It went on and on... and you got ruder and ruder... of course it is my fault cuz I don't make him...
AGAIN you CLEAN NOTHING in this house EVER!!!
You make the kids clean the vehicles and after you all the time... My children are your slaves... Why is that?

You have a JW meeting with mark after dealing with you and your foul attitude I am not going.  I don't care I am not going.

Hello Love,
I am happy you got the job and you start work.  I hope this works out for you.  Jobs in the past have not either you quit for one reason or the other or you don't get paid.  That always sucks and right now we are in HUGE debt.
I was really mad at you when I went to work.  You needed more money for gas out of the money we put on the card to pay the truck.  I said I wish I had never taken out the loan for the truck had I known that we would be having to skip payments like we do.  Instead of being supportive since it was YOU that borrowed the money you called me a nag.  I am supposed to let you borrow money against bill money and NEVER say a word about being upset that you borrowed the money you NEVER pay back.
IT SUCKS...
I have to pay back the money you borrow so I NEVER have money for me...
I have to deal with debt collectors and bill people all the time not you.
on top of all that I am NEVER to say anything negative to you about it.  NOT FAIR when it was you that had me take out the loan that you always promise to pay on. Then when you don't I am never supposed to say a word.

Hello Rick,
Yesterday was almost a good day....
It started with us having sex I laid in bed with you and well one thing to another...Of course I instantiated us cuddling cuz you never do.
Then you left for Hibbing I got ready for work.
After work we went shopping you helped with bagging the food which was lots easier for me.
Then we went out to dinner.  It was nice.  However you ended it at 8 far sooner then I wanted things to end I was having a real nice time.  Obviously you were not since you dropped me off and went to Larry's
I went to bed you came home about 9 woke me up bitching about the boys and the state of the house.  NOT once did you bitch that your MOM didn't do her share either.  OH NO!! Neither do you btw.  It was a straight ass bitch about my boys and how lazy my boys are.
Not the way I wanted our day to end.  That is for sure.

Today you are not feeling well.  Still bitchy but not nearly as bad as you were last night.